Thursday, October 19, 2017

Newborn Photo Shoot

Worn for the second set of baby photographs we had done, these ones taken in our home. These were taken not long after we got Eleanor home from the hospital and I was right in the midst of my C section recovery, so hideously swollen and in a lot of pain - and you can definitely see it in these photos. Seriously the amount of water I retained from that C section was nothing short of horrifying.

leggings: Simons / shirt: Simons / shoes: Primark / necklace: Stella and Dot / bracelet: Stella and Dot / cuff: gift from my mother / ring: House of Harlow

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Transitioning Out of Maternity Wear

I loved this maternity dress from ASOS too much to simply stop wearing it once Eleanor arrived (and, in truth, until all the swelling, etc from my pregnancy fully went away, wearing a smattering of maternity clothes still made sense from a comfort standpoint – while I can now fit into most of my pre-pregnancy wardrobe again, plenty of items are now just too weirdly fitted for me to comfortably wear - basically the dimensions of my body have been permanently altered).

dress: ASOS / shoes: Target / necklace: Stella and Dot / sunglasses: Target

Friday, October 13, 2017

All the Frills: Buying For the Future

Even though she can’t wear them yet, I’ve purchased Eleanor some pretty ridiculous clothes lately (as those of you who follow me on Instagram know). I desperately wish they made this cape and this brocade dress in adult sizes. I’m that smitten with them.

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Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Fully Recovered for the End of Summer

This maxi dress, that I ordered from ModCloth shortly before Eleanor’s birth, was the perfect piece for me in the last bit of summer that we enjoyed here (also known as the tail end of my C section recovery time). It’s super comfy and soft and very easy to toss on when I have to run a quick errand. Plus it’s totally in line with my ongoing commitment to dress like goth all summer long, temperature be damned. It’s all about goals guys.

dress: ModCloth / cardigan: Pins and Needles / shoes: Aldo / sunglasses: Aldo / necklace: Jenners

Monday, October 9, 2017

Out and About

Since Eleanor’s birth I’ve had to dash out of the house for doctor’s appointments, grocery runs, walks, etc but these photos were from the first time that I actually dressed myself in proper clothes and invested a smidge of time in doing my hair and applying makeup. The occasion? We had to take an infant CPR class and, because we’d arranged for my awesome parents to babysit, the helpmeet and I decide to squeeze in a quick dinner out as well – you know, to really make the most of things. I was a little sleep deprived (that’s basically my baseline now) and definitely still swollen from the C section, but it felt soooo good to put on my old clothes and get out for a bit!

leggings: Simons / top: Simons / shoes: Target / jacket: Joseph Ribkoff / necklace: Aldo

Friday, October 6, 2017

All the Frills: Three Months In

So I totally lied last week, but I promise this really will be my last Eleanor-related post for a bit (I can’t help it guys – she’s basically just swallowed my entire world). Here she is at three months, looking all kinds of adorable!

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Thursday, October 5, 2017

Some Things I'd like to Erase From My Mind

So these photos are a bit traumatic for me. These were taken just a couple of hours before my ob-gyn appointment went irreparably sideways and I was rushed in for an emergency C section (I write about it here). Anyways, I’m mostly just trying to push all thoughts of my actual birth experience with my daughter from my mind (it was scary, traumatizing, and just all around horrific) and focus, rather, on all those perfect moments that started to roll in after my post-surgery drugs wore off and I could actually start doing things like visit Eleanor Elizabeth Medea in the the NICU and spend quality time with her. I debated deleting these photos all together but the historian in me refuses to allow myself to just erase the record. So here they are.

leggings: Thyme Maternity / shirt: Old Navy / blazer: F21 / sandals: ModCloth / necklace: Express / sunglasses: Aldo

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Pregnancy as Performative

Guys, when these photos were taken, I swear all I was thinking was “seriously, I can’t take much more … please let this be over soon!” I am unabashedly not one of those women who had a good experience of pregnancy. I know some do and that’s great for them, but that was definitely not me (and the fact that some people kept tut tutting me and saying how sad it was that I wasn’t enjoying pregnancy actually served to make me irritable and resentful – I swear society excepts women to “perform” pregnancy with a smile and a “glow” and people react like it’s some woeful situation when that’s not what happens, even though it’s a pretty common experience for many women). I don’t think I had one time in the entire nine months where I felt comfortable. Sigh. Sorry, not sorry, rant over!

leggings: Thyme Maternity / dress: ModCloth / necklace: Stella and Dot / shoes: Aldo / sunglasses: Aldo

Friday, September 29, 2017

All the Frills: Photoshoot

Hopefully this will be my last Eleanor related All the Frills post for a while (believe it or not, I do actually have other things going on in my life aside from her…although she’s the most important thing by leaps and bounds, clearly) but I couldn’t resist sharing a few of the photos from our maternity and newborn photo shoot earlier this summer. Our photographer was the amazing Carrie of Carrie Jane Photography and I could not be happier with how they all turned out!

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Thursday, September 28, 2017


These were taken just four weeks before my estimated due date (which of course never actually came). At this point the nursery was all set up, I’d a lot of preparatory meetings with my doula, and I basically felt about as prepared as I could be. Scared (pregnancy was pretty terrifying for me, especially as my due date loomed), but prepared. Of course everything went sideways for me, which makes it such an interesting experience for me to look back at photos like this and remember where I was mentally and emotionally when they were taken. In a lot of ways this blog is like a time capsule of my pregnancy.

In other news, I was recently approached by a digital magazine to write an essay for them on male and female aristocratic honour in the early modern period (one of the topics covered in my monograph). I'm really excited to have a project to work on!

leggings: ASOS / shoes: Toms / tunic: F21 / necklace: Aldo / jacket: Joseph Ribkoff

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Normal Feet!

As I power through my back log of pre-delivery photos, all I can recollect about this is that the swelling in my feet had subsided for a few blissful days (basically I kept them elevated for like 6 hours each day for four days in a row and they returned to normal for the following few days) and I managed to get into a favourite pair of sandals, although only for a couple of hours (I didn’t want to invite more swelling). Also, don't you just love how damn irritated I look in all these?

 sandals: Arturo Chiang / leggings: Motherhood / tunic: F21 / blazer: Simons / necklace: Monserrat de Lucca

Friday, September 22, 2017

All the Frills: Sip and See

So we recently had a little gathering to celebrate Eleanor and introduce her to any friends and family she hadn’t met yet. A sip and see, if you will.

Here are a few photos of that lovely day – as well as a great photo recently sent to me by my amazing doula of my helpmeet explaining to me what happened after I awoke from my C section, showing me photos of Eleanor on his phone (I was fully put under for the C section so didn’t wake up until hours afterwards, meaning my helpmeet was the first of us to actually see and hang out with Eleanor). I look … confused. Seriously, morphine is a hell of a drug.

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